It seems as though the most difficult thing in this world is to be alone by yourself.
Every instinct in us is geared towards activity. To come out of our own aloneness.
This urge to come out of ourselves is the cause of all the world.
If we were capable of being truly and completely at peace with ourselves, we would never come out of it.
There is always the mind which drives us outside our fundamental solitude. It creates anxiety, dread, terror and loneliness to bring us out into the world. To be truly alone is the highest virtue. Yet we are always completely alone. No relationship can provide lasting peace. At a fundamental level, you are always alone. Our only difference lies in our response to this fundamental solitude. In that great solitude, you do not exist. It is the void of pure awareness. No person or world can exist here. This is the great fear. And we run back to the comforting story of our illusory lives. At least our existence is acknowledged here!
The void is a source of great comfort in times of suffering. But we would like to deny it in our moments of superficial joy. To go deep into the void is to face our own death. And the death of all our relationships.
But, let us ask ourselves this question - which is it that seems more real?
Our personal story or the great void?
The chaos of our lives or the absolute silence of awareness?
While the waves splash about the shore rejoicing and lamenting and relating, the deep ocean remains unconcerned and alone, immersed within its own depths of absolute silence. Unaware of the existence of the waves. Do you find this scary or liberating? That is finally the only question.
Every instinct in us is geared towards activity. To come out of our own aloneness.
This urge to come out of ourselves is the cause of all the world.
If we were capable of being truly and completely at peace with ourselves, we would never come out of it.
There is always the mind which drives us outside our fundamental solitude. It creates anxiety, dread, terror and loneliness to bring us out into the world. To be truly alone is the highest virtue. Yet we are always completely alone. No relationship can provide lasting peace. At a fundamental level, you are always alone. Our only difference lies in our response to this fundamental solitude. In that great solitude, you do not exist. It is the void of pure awareness. No person or world can exist here. This is the great fear. And we run back to the comforting story of our illusory lives. At least our existence is acknowledged here!
The void is a source of great comfort in times of suffering. But we would like to deny it in our moments of superficial joy. To go deep into the void is to face our own death. And the death of all our relationships.
But, let us ask ourselves this question - which is it that seems more real?
Our personal story or the great void?
The chaos of our lives or the absolute silence of awareness?
While the waves splash about the shore rejoicing and lamenting and relating, the deep ocean remains unconcerned and alone, immersed within its own depths of absolute silence. Unaware of the existence of the waves. Do you find this scary or liberating? That is finally the only question.
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