The chief obstacle to seeing awareness is negative tendencies. The negative tendencies/emotions and dark imaginings are powerful obstacles which render you blind to the true nature of things.
All negative tendencies are rooted in dark imaginings. Dark thoughts/malice/sadistic thoughts/thoughts of violence/rape/brutal sex/animal indulgences/thoughts of filth/guttural visions/sexual incest/sexual violence/forbidden sexual and violent indulgences/desire to cause pain are tendencies which have a vice like grip on the subconscious regions of the mind. These hold power over the mind, pervert the intellect and make it almost impossible to see the truth.
Dark imaginings are therefore your chief temptation. Why do we have these dark imaginings. Sometimes the mind seeks escape. As you become aware, you become aware of suffering, misery and the general pain of life. In order to escape the pain, you can either rise higher or fall lower. Dark imaginings are always a form of escape from pain. Sometimes, the pain that we carry is relieved by dark imaginings which offer the prospect of release. However, it comes at a cost. It completely blinds you to truth and leads you further into bondage. It binds you through addiction and then it becomes difficult to leave. It extinguishes the light. We take to the dark path to escape from pain, but it completely consumes.
When you go down the dark path, your intellect is perverted/corrupted and understanding disappears. All that you crave is greater darkness. Because it seems to release the pain temporarily. But it eventually leads to total despair. Like a craving that seeks immediate relief, the dark path takes you deeper into darkness.
It is the subconscious that harbors our dark tendencies, making it invisible to our conscious minds. Inside the subconscious, it lurks unseen and then when you are tired or your conscious mind control weakens, it arrives suddenly and performs its havoc and you are left wondering what happened.
Hence the need to be always vigilant. Only by grace when all the darkness is fully dispelled are you really liberated. As long as there is darkness, liberation is not possible. And darkness cannot be destroyed without light. Pray for light. Pray that the entire world is enlightened so that the darkness inside the subconscious is fully removed.
Darkness also has its role therefore. It allows us to start appreciating the normal. Great effort is required to resist the pull of darkness. Especially in times of great loss, the pull of darkness seems too much to resist. We can only pray that the light protects us in times of weakness. Invoke the Mother. She will protect you from darkness.
