Choice and suffering

Sometimes, out of the blue, regret hits you.

Regret over past actions.

Regret over bad choices.

Truly, having to make choices is to live in misery.

Choice = suffering

To eliminate suffering, eliminate choices.
Realize that things are exactly as they are supposed to be.

Make peace with all your choices, even the pathetic ones!

The possibility of making the wrong choice and the assumption of having made one are the two factors capable of causing enormous mental agony.

To cope with this, one has to stick to one's choices which have already been made.

Avoid being in a position where you have to choose.

Ultimately, there is neither a right nor a wrong choice.

Free will and choice are causes of great suffering.

Accept your position in life.

Accept your circumstances in life.

Accept all the 'wrong' choices you made.

Create a routine. This reduces restlessness.

Ultimately, in truth, there is no 'choice' to be made.

A desire

All that I now desire is this:

To have a permanent solitary place to meditate.

Without having to bother about what to do, where to go, whom to meet etc.

A fixed dwelling place until the body dies.

No more traveling to different places. No more jumping jobs and careers.


No more anxieties about the future.

No more restlessness of mind.

Enough of all the comings and goings.

All that I now care about is to have a permanent solitary dwelling place. Nothing else matters.

Spiritual addiction

Ultimately, one realizes the futility of all external teachings. They are helpful until a point. Once that point is crossed, they can become a source of attachment and therefore a hindrance.

Spiritual addiction is as bad as material addiction. Too much poring over spiritual literature is also a form of ignorance.

It has been said that no enquiry is possible into the self.

Ultimately, the Self remains as itself at all times.

There is no one there to realize this.

 

Self inherence

As you progress in life, you realize that ultimately, only one thing matters.

Inhereing in the Self.

Realization

The activities of life prevent the realization of a central fact.

That this world is not real.

Give up clinging to your tasks and activities.

You will realize the great void that lies at the heart of exixtence.

Clinging to activities and relationships is merely to take our attention away from this fact.

Deep within this void, the one lies awake and unseen.

To realize this one is to end suffering once and for all.
 

The One

In it, there is no body.

In it, there is no food.

In it, there is no sex.

In it, there is no sleep.

In it, there are no dreams.

In it, there is no work.

In it, there is no desire.

In it, there is no inertia.

In it, there are no worlds.

In it, there is no relationship.

In it, there are no causes.

In it, there is no sound.

In it, there is no thought.

In it, there is no universe.

In it, there is no God.

In it, there is no activity.

In it, there is no knowledge.

In it, there is no money.

In it, there is no mother.

In it, there is no father.

In it, there is no fear.

In it, there is no cause.

In it, there is no other.

In it, there is no person.

In it, there is no 'I'.

One alone Is.

Purification

Your body is what you eat.

Your spirit is what you think.

Give up therefore all unclean food and unclean thought.

Reduce consumption of dead meats. Give up all red meat.

Reduce intake of chicken and fish.

Unclean thoughts are thoughts of malice.

Give up therefore all malicous thoughts.

Desire ill for none.

Bless all.

Clean food and clean thoughts are most important to purify the body and mind.

Only a pure mind and body is capable of peace.

Impure thoughts will never result in peace.

Once thought is purified, body also follows suit.

Detachment

Detachment is of supreme importance in order to remain peaceful.

Sometimes, even actions which emerge out of good intentions can result in bondage.

Remain detached, but do not lose compassion.

Remain attached to neither the world nor awareness.

Remain content in solitude.

Be at peace with your self.

There is no need for relationship.

There is no need for security.

Attachment to actions breeds misery.

Selfish action results in suffering.

Let us worship the One reality which alone exists.

May supreme peace be yours.

Mistakes and redemption

You may commit many mistakes in your life.

Let them go.

Accept it. It cannot be changed.

Do not let malice enter your heart.

Be liberated.

Live as one liberated.

Be true to who you are.

Know thyself.

Live with awareness.

Peace be upon you, whoever you are and whatever condition you are in.

It is my desire that you live in peace, no matter what your present situation.

This is my wish for you.

Self awareness

To be conscious is to be self aware.

That which is aware is conscious of itself.

There is no point where this self awareness begins.

Hence it does not end.

Compassion

It is true what they say.

Wisdom is compassion.

Without compassion, there can be no wisdom.

Compassion is to have ill will towards none.

It is to desire liberation for all.

Removing malice

Having harbored malice now for decades, finally I see how it poisons the mind.
Ill will is poisonous. More poisonous than anything else.
It completely clouds the mind and destroys inner peace.
Ultimately, it destroys the one who harbors it.

Fortunately, there is a remedy for it.
Start by wishing well for others in your own mind first.
Transform malice into desiring liberation for all.

Desire peace for all people you meet.
Harbor malice for none.

This frees the mind.

Do not covet the perceived wealth of others.

Let peace be upon all.

A person who wishes well for others is never disappointed.

Once malice leaves your heart, only then will real peace arrive.

For the one who nurtures malice, his life is filled with misery.

He has no refuge but his own ambition and desire for power.

Only a malicious heart craves power.

For one with malice, life is one big ocean of darkness.

Hence uproot this tree of malice by desiring peace for all.

That is all. Just wish people well in your heart. That is all.

And carry on with life. Only stop harboring malice.

Have faith in this. Let go of malice.

Peace

The best way out of misery is to desire liberation for all.

Supreme peace is complete allowance.

There is no awareness independent of phenomena.

Awareness and phenomena are not two different things.

Peace

Peace is to give up every single ounce of resistance.

Peace is all there is.

It is impossible for things to be other than how they are at this very moment.

Witnessing

There is no witnesser of thought.

Only a thought witnessing another thought.

There is no witness.

Seeking

For how long do you intend to seek so restlessly?
For how long do you intend to refuse to see?
For how long do you intend to 'keep your options open'?

Oh, miserable seeker, for how long do you intend to keep clinging to your foolish notions?

Throw out everything from your mind.

And see what remains.
 

Suffering resistance

When something whose possibility you did not even imagine happens to you, and when the mind is unable to accept it, intense suffering is created.

Nothing else matters but this resistance. The mind is overwhelmed with resistance.
Descent into ignorance. Complete forgetting of truth.

The way out is to just let it be as it is. Nothing needs to be done. Just wait it out.
Awareness is never involved in any suffering.

You are awareness.

 

Unresolved stuff

Ok, here are some unresolved emotional issues:

-I feel guilty about not living upto the expectations of my parents
-I feel horrible when I watch others succeed or get liberated from their issues
-I feel disconnected from people and harbor a general feeling of malice towards others
-I feel as though I am living the life I am expected to live (whose expectations, I do not know)
-I harbor a deep fear of failure and not meeting expectations

Presence

There is presence now.
This presence is always here.
This presence alone is real.
Presence alone exists.

Just notice this.

There is absolutely no need to change your external situation.

Rest here.

Nothing else matters.

Love...that old trickster!!

Falling in love is a most beautiful feeling.
Maybe it is only in love that any meaning can be found.

Life may not be without meaning after all.
As long as there is love, life needs no other meaning.

Questions and answers

The same questions asked repeatedly. Ultimately, one realizes that there is no answer.
Because ultimately, there is no real question.
It is just the way it is.
There is no truth since there is no falsehood.

Only this.

Just this

A sense of the mundane fills up my mind. Truly, in the absence of all seeking, life feels empty and dull.
Or is this just another cloud passing by?

The expectation that life should always be exciting makes the mundane and the ordinary seem obnoxious.
Yet, is it not just this that exists at all times.

Even now, you are held by life. You have complete freedom. Yet desire has weakened.

After sleeping for almost 12 hours, now I feel a little groggy. A sense of heaviness. That seems true that it is said that laziness is not really enjoyable. The laziness of heaviness feels just as miserable as incessant activity. Overpowered by inertia, alertness has left me. A sense of purposelessness remains.

No desire to go outside. This state of mind needs change. Maybe even a very tiny change.

The heart of life is not love, but ordinariness. Accept this moment.

I find myself unable to change the repetitive thought patterns.

Imagine there is absolutely nothing to do and nowhere to go and no one to be with. And complete freedom.