SInking into darkness

The mind is capable of sinking into unimaginable depths of degradation. And there is a perverse pleasure that it gets from that. It is capable of getting addicted to barbaric acts of torture and cruelty and its ability to inflict suffering is immense. The reason why the mind falls into degradation is to escape the inherent emptiness of life. It seeks to fill itself with total perversion and degradation. And it keeps going deeper. And all the falls into degradation leave behind an impression on the mind stuff. This is the price of falling into perversion.

There is simply no way out without deep repentance and prayer. May the perversions and darkness of the mind be released.

When the mind sinks into darkness, it gets pulled further in and is unable to appreciate the simple pleasures of life, seeking instead only greater degrees of perversions. This becomes a vicious circle and one ultimately becomes a beast.

May the darkness be enlightened. Grace alone can remove the darkness.

Why seek?

What is it that keeps us forever seeking? What is this drive to strive higher? What is this deep fear of degrading?

The only way to overcome fear is to look clearly into the heart of things. Solitude and melancholy marinate the soul. Clearing the waste. Getting rid of the junk. Clarity is not something to be attained, but getting rid of all that is clouding the vision.

To be at ease with your soul. To know that you know. Getting in touch with your soul.

Just let it be. Clarity is inherent. The natural state. Peace.

Certainty

To attain mastery over something is an arduous journey. There are many false alarms on the way. Perhaps the biggest obstacle to mastery is the belief that you have already mastered.
The biggest obstacle to knowledge is the belief that you already know.

Is there anything that is absolutely certain.

1. There is something here. Something seems to be happening. And this is known.
2. I know I exist.
3. What I am I do not know. But that existence exists and knows it exists.

Only this is certain. What is seen around, I have no idea. From where do sounds arise I have no idea. From where do thoughts arise I have no idea. From where do I arise I have no idea.

There is only existence knowing that it exists.

Movement is continuous.

What causes motion is unknown.

Existence exists as movement. But is inherently absolutely still.

Information is endless. And continuously changing. It cannot be understood. Because the cause of information is unknown.

We can only 'learn' social conventions and mechanisms. The nature of existence is unknown.

All learning is only of conventions and methodologies. True knowledge is the knowing of existence.

To lead a peaceful life, all that is needed is to avoid folly. To question every assumption. To become aware of the follies of life. Of self deception. Of unquestioned beliefs.

Confusion arises from being caught up in details and is an endless loop. Clarity is inherent. Confusion is created.

Lack of self control leads to confusion. Less is more.

Clarity is knowing emptiness.

Is that which is incompetent?

One wish

If I had one wish, it would be to choose the time of my death.

The great secret

In order to be worthy of receiving the deepest secret of life, you must be willing to walk head on into your greatest fear.

Resentment

Self hatred or resentment is the worst feeling. It happens when you are not true to yourself and allow yourself to be influenced by outside factors. There is something that absolutely loathes being subject to external constraints and psychological manipulation.

The only true way to live a sane life is to be true to yourself, whatever the cost. You cannot allow yourself to fall prey to psychological manipulation. Else you will develop self hatred. Let us pray that the soul come out of the slime of deep resentment and break the psychological shatters and shine the light of truth upon itself.