Addiction to pornography

Addiction to pornography is one of the worst forms of addiction, since it directly impacts the mind. It makes the mind coarse and unable to perceive clearly. A mind that is addicted to pornography is constantly craving for it or thinking about it. It loses its ability to be awake to reality. It is no longer able to maintain the perception of truth. Being flooded with coarse metal images makes the mind heavy and confused. The only fruit of addiction to porn is craving. A mind craving for more porn and the cycle continues.

So, if you value a clear mind, stay clear of pornography. It is one of the most widespread forces of degradation. It results only in the intensification of craving and confusion.

To stay clear of addiction, start valuing the things that you already have. Unless you value that which you already have, you risk losing it. If you do not value clarity of mind and perception of truth, you will lose it. Let us seek grace and gratitude. Let us be gratitude for the ability to remain always awake to reality and conscious of the Self. If you do not value it, you fill fall prey to addictions and cravings. Lust easily overpowers a complacent mind. Let us therefore pray to cultivate gratitude and appreciating the value of always remaining awake to reality.

Let us bow down before truth and the ability of the clear mind to perceive truly.

Peace be unto you, and may you be liberated.

Non physical nature of awareness

Let us denote consciousness as that which is generated by the nervous system or a physical system. Let us denote awareness as that which has no physical origin. Thus consciousness is a consequence of physical activity. Awareness is independent of the physical.

In this sense, consciousness is temporary. Your true nature is awareness.

Worldly investments

All worldly investments (marriage, family, children, wealth, career, house, friends, recognition, fame) are ultimately worthless in the face of death. Invest therefore in the eternal. Recognize the eternal and never lose sight of it. Never lose sight of the One Soul. Your true primal identity. It is the only valuable treasure which cannot be lost. Truth alone is eternal. Non-truth is easily lost. It is a false investment.

Evil action

No action can prevent self realization. If we define evil as that which does not allow the self to be realized, then no action can be classified as evil. Since no action can prevent self realization, there is no such thing as an evil or wrong action. The self is to be realized by itself and this is not an action. Therefore, actions are not evil.

Only one thought

"God alone is real, all else illusory."
-Ramakrishna Paramhansa

This one thought alone is enough to sustain you through countless lifetimes. Nothing else is needed. Life and death are trivial before the reality of God.

Aligning with truth

Aligning yourself with truth is the best way to live life. To live a life that is misaligned to truth only results in meaningless suffering and misery. There is no separation.

Truth of God

The truth of God alone is enough to sustain you for lifetimes. To develop conviction in the truth of God alone is enough of a worthy occupation in life. And it will reach fruition, no matter what. This is the promise of the sages. Go forth now. May you never forget this!

Enlightenment

Enlightenment is needed only when the ego is believed to be real. Where there is no belief in the reality of the ego/personality, no enlightenment is needed or is possible.

In the absence of the ego, there is nobody there to get 'enlightened'.

Confusion

Confusion is a consequence of consciousness. As soon as consciousness arises, confusion arises. That which is beyond consciousness is beyond confusion.

Suffering identity

The key suffering that is experienced is a consequence of the notion of others. The existence of other people is the reason for 'my' suffering.

However, if looked at carefully, its the identification of 'me' which results in the notion of 'others'. 'Ego-identification' or the 'Me-identity' gets solidified through repeated dwelling. Once solidified, the concept of others also solidifies. A solid me vs a solid others in which the me is perpetually struggling to survive.

No respite for me. For suffering to end, the me has to go. No other way.

The Truth

Existence is absolute.

The bliss of existence knowing itself

Only the below is fundamental:

1. Existence (Sat)
2. The knowing of existence (Chit)
3. The bliss of knowing existence (Anand)

The self knowing existence whose output is the bliss of knowing existence. There is truly nothing else.

Existence knowing itself results in bliss and contentment. Nothing else can be confirmed.

On the peace of the absolute.

Anything that you are aware of is troublesome. When you are sick, you are aware of illness. When you are upset, you are aware of some mental disturbance. One who is aware of the mind is tormented by it. Even being aware of awareness is painful. The only peace lies in absolute unawareness. When there is no awareness, there is only the immensity of infinity. Forever undisturbed.

Life post two months marriage

Life post marriage is not all that great. The key ingredient of love seems missing. And in its absence, suspicion is there. Suspicion of motive. It is very difficult to willingly do something good for someone you don't love. Love is missing in this marriage. And without love, its all just mundane activity. Without love, life itself is one long drag. Ah, how can one sustain oneself without love.

Sometimes, I do consider separation. Its better to live alone than live as a loveless couple.

Not sure how this will turn out...

System complexity and errors

As you increase the complexity of a system, you also increase the frequency of errors. Increase in abstraction comes at a cost of decrease in robustness. Increased complexity leads to more frequent occurrence of errors.

When you increase the complexity of a system, you are basically increasing the number of states and making it more difficult to distinguish between two distinct states. When two distinct states start of overlap, error is created.

A highly complex system is therefore prone to error occurrences.

Worst day again - part 2

Today was one of the bad days again. Caused by confusion of whether to go or not to go for work. Ended up calling in sick. Context is that on the previous day, I was directly informed by a colleague very firmly to not show up for work if unwell (I was coughing and sitting next to him), resulting in leaving work after lunch. Numerous conflicting thoughts resulted in a decision to skip work, which was later intenesly regretted and suffered mentally.

The mind can be vicious, tormenting with thoughts and despairs and dark visions. And when it is doing its thing, it can appear very real.

Fantasy of love

The fantasy of love often seems more enchanting than its reality.