Tuesday, October 15, 2013

Brooding

This life of ours is strange indeed. Suddenly you find yourself engulfed by a void, a void of complete emptiness. There is nothing there, no hope, no desire, nothing to do, nowhere to go, no one to meet. Its all consuming. This void exists at all times. It is only in solitary moments when we get aware of it.
All our activities is just an escape from this great void that lies at the core of existence. All the drama in life, all the hook-ups and all relationships are an attempt to escape.

My life has turned out to be completely barren. Nothing to look forward to. No relationship to seek. No success to chase. Just emptiness. Is it really possible to escape this emptiness? If it were, wouldn't we all be pursuing that? All things end. All relationships end. Everything is eventually lost. We spend our days in longing and desire. Longing for the touch of the true beloved. Seeking in all corners of the earth and the mind. Yet does this search ever end? Our relationships change. That which seems wonderful today becomes painful tomorrow. The longing is deep and intense. Caught in the midst of a story, the void is forgotten. But inside ourselves, aren't we truly alone? Can another person accompany us into ourselves? Can this futile search ever end? Is there a thing called contentment?

Why do we seek? What do we seek? Who do we seek? What is this void? What is fear? What is true? What is missing at this moment? Can you ever separate yourself from this moment?  Is there an end to illusion?

No matter where you are. No matter what the situation you find yourself in. There is just 'this'. This is always here. There is no way that 'this' can be lost. The whole world is ultimately fated to be lost. All your relationships will fall. They were never real in the first place. Only 'this' will remain. And 'this' is all there is.

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