Worst day again - part 2

Today was one of the bad days again. Caused by confusion of whether to go or not to go for work. Ended up calling in sick. Context is that on the previous day, I was directly informed by a colleague very firmly to not show up for work if unwell (I was coughing and sitting next to him), resulting in leaving work after lunch. Numerous conflicting thoughts resulted in a decision to skip work, which was later intenesly regretted and suffered mentally.

The mind can be vicious, tormenting with thoughts and despairs and dark visions. And when it is doing its thing, it can appear very real.

Fantasy of love

The fantasy of love often seems more enchanting than its reality.

Introverted thinking

My primary mode of operation is introverted thinking. And its not fully reliable. Yes, it helps to keep you fixed to your ruling principle. But the conclusions from introverted thinking are not necessarily true. So, its better that you don't get stuck up in it and learn to be open to the outside world.

Introspection is more like a fabrication and not a reliable means to self knowledge.

Stay alone or in company

Left to our own devices, we would probably self destruct. The decisions that we make or refuse to make often leads to expansion of sorrow and then self hatred, and so on to a reinforcing negative loop.

Okay, lets get personal. I got an invitation from a friend to meet up and I didn't respond, since I wanted to be left alone. The next day I started feeling bad about it and regretting the decision. So, I wonder if it is really better to be left alone vs having some company.

There is no one to tell us what is right or wrong. Only the mind judging a particular decision as good or bad. So, what then is to be done?

The call of God

The call of God cannot be resisted. The voice of the Spirit cannot be ignored. When its time to go, no power in the universe can stop.

You are afraid that you will remain stuck to this world. Fear not. Nothing can stop you when the spirit calls. 

Keep in touch

There is a part of you untouched by the world. A part deeply private. Unexpressed. Untouched. Forever apart from the world. To lose touch with this part of you is to get totally dependent on the world. Dependence on the world results in misery and humiliation.

Keep in touch.

Forever alone

The eternal meditator lies alone. Forever unaware.