The biggest mystery is perhaps the question: How did something come
out of nothing? How did existence come out of non-existence? And it's an
important question.
In fact, it's so
important that if you could realize the non-verbal answer to that
question, then every question of existence would naturally be resolved
in that same instance.
What you call "something" is more of "a nothing" than "a something", yet it's not "a nothing" either.
Quantum physics is beginning to stumble upon the fact that everything
is empty. When they try to find "something", also called "matter", it
disappears. What they have yet to realize is that "nothing" is the only
"something" there is. In other words, nothing is the discovery. Nothing
is as close to something as it gets.
However, Reality is beyond
something and beyond nothing. It's beyond both. And here is where it
gets tricky to describe because you cannot speak about that which cannot
be understood conceptually. It is not what it seems to be. Something is
not what it seems to be and also what nothing or non-existence points
to is not what it seems to be.
What is being pointed to can only
be known when you don't know anything. No movement of any ideas, not
even subtly. Then, what is realized, is that which is beyond something
and beyond nothing, yet it's always available and truly the only unmoved
Reality.
And That, what That is pointing to, could be called
"the Reality of nothing" or "the Reality of non-existence". Which seems
like a paradox, but it's not at all paradoxical, it's simply
non-conceptual.
Most people fear death because they fear nothing
or fear non-existence. They don't relate to nothing as an empty single
One space or simply this hereness without ideas, but death is related to
as an non-existence or an ending.
What people fear is going to
die, never existed; not as "a something" and not as "a beginning". It's
only a massive interlinking of conceptual ideas. "Something", or
"matter", only exists as an idea, which is why it cannot be found.
The idea of something is only possible because of nothing (I am using
the word "nothing" here, to point to that which isn't an idea; that
which is beyond something and beyond nothing). The idea of something
comes out of nothing . "Something" never happened. For "something" to
happen, it has to have a beginning and an end. The only end is when the
idea of something vanishes. And in hindsight you can say it was never
there.
It happens every night in deep sleep. But that's just
words to point to what is already the case. In truth nothing happens
because nothing is ever happening. "Deep sleep" is the only Reality.
Nobody ever wakes up, or awakens, because that which awakens was never
here and that which comes to be known is the only known that can be
known. I Am without a second. I Am, nothing else is. Then, the known
reference of I Am is dropped as an idea because it doesn't reference
itSelf; it just is. It's not nothing and it's not something, it's the
only; it simply is. Simply is, without ideas. Just this, without ideas
of what this is.
The isness of nothing (that which is beyond
nothing and also beyond something), just is, and is without beginning
and without end; beyond both. There is no such thing as an end to
"nothing" because "nothing" never had a beginning.
"Nothing"
doesn't need something to mirror itSelf or to see itSelf. It cannot see
itSelf, and doesn't need to reflect itSelf because it's Self-evident to
itSelf without reflection. In fact, this "purest nothing", which I'm
failing to point at, is only realized when the idea of something is no
longer energized. Yet, when it's not energized, then it's easily
realized. The realization happens all too often (since it's the only
unmoved Reality), even in "deep sleep".
However, it's not so
pure in deep sleep, since "the mind" (which is just another idea of
something, but points to that which produces the idea of something), is
static, or temporarily unenergized, yet ready to move into ideas of
something happening with even the slight interest in what it seems to be
offering.
In other words, something didn't come out of nothing.
There is only nothing. But nothing is not what it seems to be. Nothing
is known when the idea of nothing is not being conceptualized and the
idea of something is not being conceptualized. When the mind stops
moving or simply stops believing anything it has to say. Since something
only appears when the mind is followed to the conclusions it offers.
Nothing is not nothing. Nothing is when you cannot know what is. And
when you cannot know what is, that's the only known that is realized.
It's realized that when you have no idea about what is, that's what is.
It's realized when you're not conceptualizing, that's what Reality is.
And that's what the mind relates to as nothing or non-existence, but
it's not nothing, it's simply the end of the mind; the mind is actually
non-existent. Was never there as something. The mind is nothing, which
conceptualizes the idea of something; something happening.
The
mind cannot know itself without knowing something outside of itself.
This is why in deep sleep the mind seems non-existent since it has no
environment, thus it cannot move. The mind knows itself through the idea
of an external environment. In deep sleep there is no experience of an
external environment, thus the mind is stilled or frozen. In this
freeze, the mind cannot conceptualize its own existence because there is
nothing else to compare itself to, thus nothing is experienced to the
mind as non-existent. But it is the mind that is non-existent, not
nothing.
Nothing is the only experience that can be experienced
because there is nothing else except for nothing, yet nothing is not an
experience. Nothing is the only existence. And yet, it cannot be
experienced as existence, it can only be known as what you really are;
the only Reality.
In this sense, people are afraid of themselves
since they are afraid of knowing themselves as absolutely nothing
because they don't understand themselves; they don't understand what
nothing actually is.
Without nothing, even the idea of something
couldn't be conceptualized. In other words, if nothing was equivalent
to non-existence, or forever dead, then what you call existence couldn't
be. In fact, what you call non-existence is the only existence.
Non-existence or nothing, is the only suchness, which isn't a suchness.
If you are still, in the peace of nothing, you will experience nothing
as the most beautiful essence since you will not be there having an
experience. Much like the peace of deep sleep. As soon as you awake, you
wish to go back to sleep because the wake state is effort. The effort
of continuously relating to ideas; the struggle of propping up a reality
which has no existence. The effort of the mind, to understand itself
through ideas, is the struggle.
When one's mind is relaxed, they
will see the beauty of life, but the habit is to relate to life as
something; as the miracle of something, the miracle of life, yet the
true beauty is the beauty of nothing. In other words, what people call
"the miracle of life" is experienced when one gets still, falls into
gratefulness, sees more clearly, or less ideas are being manufactured.
In the stillness; in the not moving, in the being as what is; beauty is
known.
Nothing, that which is beyond ideas, is beautiful. Nothing
is not everythingness, nothing is nothingness. Nothingness is the
miracle. Nothingness has no beginning or end, it is its own eternal
miracle. The only miracle. And yet, everyone worships the everythingness
because they don't realize that everythingness is actually the beauty
of nothingness.
To have devotion to the nothingness is to have
devotion to that which is. Every Master, if truly clear, will have
extreme devotion and most will assume that the devotion is a devotion to
somethingness, since that's what they postulate.
The fact is
that nobody can understand nothingness. How do you understand that which
is Eternal? How do you understand the Infinite, when THAT is all that
is? How do you understand what is, when what is, is not an isness?
It's the not understanding; the not conceptualizing, only then is what
is, known. It's known, but not understood, you see? And that's the only
absolute knowing there is to know. It's not known as knowledge, but
known as Self-evident. It's known by being it; it's known by not
conceptualizing it being. It's the only being, yet Being is not a being
and it's not a non-being, it just is. Out beyond all ideas, it just is.
What Is being pointed to, is as clear as words can get, but it can
sound complex because it's actually the most simple realization; the
most simple innocent and naive seeing. It's the simple realization that
nothing the mind thinks, says or does has any reality.
The
Reality of nothingness is not true or untrue, it's not form or formless,
it's not non-dual or dual, it's not spiritual or worldly, it's not
ordinary or extraordinary, it's not empty or full. It's not nothing or
everything and not anything else. It's beyond any ideas; it's beyond
anything that can be known. It's the pure experience of unknowingness.
Unknowingness is known when you're not moving away from unknowingness.
Drop all philosophies, theories, spiritual understandings, experiences
and beliefs, then here it is. Utterly simple.
~excerpt (Nick)
