To the misearable one

Peace of mind is impossible to the one who harbors malice.

Desire to cause misery to others binds you to a miserable state of mind.

The way out is to desire liberation for all.

Liberation is the final state for each and every life form in every universe.

This cannot be thwarted.

Allow every life form to be liberated peacefully and so shall ye find peace.

Consciousness alone exists.

Seeking

We seek because we don't know what else to do.

We cannot help but seek.

And we keep seeking the cause of our seeking.

And seeking continues...

We are never lost...but believe we are...hence seeking continues, inspite of everything...

And this is perfectly fine!

What is love

It is notions that we fall in love with.

Not persons. The notion of being married to the notion of the love of your life.
We fall in love with the notion of being with a loved one.

There are notions of being a lover, hater and loner.

When there is the notion of being loved by another, the sensation is called love.
When there is the notion of being hated by another, the sensation is called hate.
When there is the notion of being ignored by the world, the sensation is called loneliness.

Sensations are notions experienced.

Step outside of notions.

There is only Peace!

This is Love.

No mistakes

To give up suffering, give up the notion of mistakes.

There is no such thing as a mistake.

What is, is.

Choice and suffering

The belief that we have choices causes enormous suffering.

The notion that an opportunity has been lost makes one miserable.

Remember that all choice is an illusion.

Consciousness alone exists.

About me

If you wish to know me please read this:

I am a flawed person.
I have tendencies towards becoming a loner and retreating into my solitary mental cave.
I am terrible at maintaining relationships.
I am terrible at showing affection.
I might appear to be indifferent to your conversations even when I am listening.
I do get struck by my insecurities and fears often.
I am prone to retreat to my mental cave when I am insecure.

But, this I can vouch for:

That I will love you forever in spite of everything.

Loneliness

Man stands in his own shadow and wonders why it is dark. (Zen proverb)

Final realization

Peace is to desire things exactly as they are.

The way your life situation stands at this point is exactly how it is supposed to be.

The way things stand at this moment is exactly what you desire.

Do not desire things to be other than how they are right now.

There is no greater realization and no greater peace than this.

Back to family

The sense of being bound, that old familiar feeling visits the mind here at home.
The sense of family obligations feels constricting.
At home in this room which used to be mine, I feel a sense of something I cannot put down.
It does not feel good. As though this is not where I am meant to be.
Yet, there is a sadness. Looking at the people around living their lives, one feels a sense of monotony.
A sense of being bound to the comfort of familiar beliefs.

A great weight seems to have descended. As though life here can pass through a dull lethargy. Eating and sleeping are the sole activities. And when one gets used to it, one even stops trying to get out.

Realize that you do not belong here. Desire for pleasure indeed binds the soul. It is only in ignorance that pleasure can be enjoyed. I don't know the way out.

It seems that wherever one goes, one gets caught up. Yet...

Desire

A complete absence of desire is not the aim.
Infact, it is uncontrolled desire that is harmful.
A small amount of desire is necessary and also unavoidable.
Just don't resist it.

Avoidance of suffering is not the purpose of life.